36 weeks....

and its wearing on me, and on my family.

No matter how much i try not to let the pregnancy effect our lives it does.

The kids are stressed, waiting for the arrival of their new sibling is very stressful when you have no clue who is going to watch you during the big event. Millie has a viral infection that has given her a painful rash. Summer is curious about the birthing process and is very hurt she will not be there for it.

Ryan is stressed, he doesn't sleep well because I am up several times a night, also his pay is messed up and no one seems to know why or how and its been months and a large percentage not being paid draining our savings and his patience, he is working evenings in an area about 1 1/2 hours away with little to no cell service once again stressful.

I am stressed by the distance away Ryan is working because we are 45 minutes from the hospital and I am probably going to have drive myself there if I go into labor while he is working. The heartburn stinks and I am gaining more weight than I wanted making any eating a guilty affair. I am however staying active water aerobics 3 times a week went on the youth weekend retreat and taught at VBS last week, still taking summer to all her activities and attending youth group.

I do have hope, hope that my body will go into labor on its own. That on my 3rd child I will feel what a contraction that is produced by my body and not my medication feels like. I pray this baby is the healthiest it can possibly be, that the decision I have made for our birth plan are the right ones.

I know that God is in control and knows when this baby is ready, but I do have say I would not mind if this one came a little early!

SOON, Soon, soon, soon, soon.....................................................

Summer Fun List activity 1

It seems kind of silly that I need a list to remember to have summer fun but after thinking about it I decided what a great reminder not to forget about the 2 big girls while preparing for this new baby.

This morning we got up early to go on a SEASHELL HUNT.

It was a major fail!
There was a storm last night and we couldn't find any....LOL

So they made the best of it...

Unfortunately I did not plan on the girls swimming so we had no towels.

Nothing checked off our list but still a FUN morning (all before 8:30)

(Ryan was home this morning)

To much!!!!

108 degrees with super high humidity and the UV index actually says "very high".

I am actually trying to get stuff accomplished but when it feels like this I work for 20 minutes and take 40 minutes to recover. The next person that tells me that I look miserable might get punched in the nose...... OK maybe not but I''ll definitely think really mean thoughts because in case you were wondering I am completely aware that I am "large, huge, gigantic, jumbo, and monstrous."

PS in case you were wondering the youth have no filter when it comes to telling me exactly how big they think I am, i have to do some deep breathing to not snap at there truly innocent comments. Or to YELL at them passionately how abstinence is the only true answer or they too will look like me (which is true just not the message I am there to give)

now I am going to go beach myself on the sofa with my 1/2 gallon jug of ice water!!!!

END RANT (for today!!)

Millie at 3

I really can not believe I am writing this but my baby is 3.

MIllies hair is still unruly, she loves to play board games and will play them for hours.
She still loves sweets!!!!!!!
She likes to play with trains and legos too.
 Her favorite shows are expanding she love Princess and the frog, Super why and Little Enstiens.
She can count in English and Korean.
She is becoming more social and LOVES to go spend time with her friends a church and the YMCA.
She loves to sing, God our father me love you and Me almost there.
Millie loves to bake and asks to make muffins whenever we have company.
Her favorite letter is M and W which she thinks is also an M.
She is counting down the days until she can go school.
She is still a rule follower and loves things to be clean and organized!
Millie dislikes sprinklers and the "wavey" beach. Or anything out of her control.
She likes to lay out and play quietly at the beach!
She tells ryan when the grass needs mowed or the trash takin out and tells me when the dishes need to be done or laundry folded.
When you ask Millie her name she says MillieDotson no pause in between!!!

Millie,

My love some how you will always be my baby! I know you want to be a big girl but I love that your are still my little girl! As i watch you grow I can not help but be excited for the woman you will become so kind and sensitive. Your humor amuses me. Your smile brightens my days! stay my sweet girl!

LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH,
Mommy