Precious time

Time with daddy..

There is nothing that will make you appreciate time more than knowing it is limited.

The days with Ryan were filled and were perfect.

 

Thursday (thanksgiving)

          Breakfast at the Pancake pantry, drive and hiking in the smoky mountain, craft show then a buffet for dinner!

Friday

                Doughnuts, getting daddy new workout shoes, lunch at Olive Garden,  Magi-quest where we became fairies, Then I made lamb, pita, hummus, Greek yogurt for dinner.

 

Saturday

            Made daddy breakfast in bed, snuggled, went and bought Christmas trees and decorations, then decorated the house with dad. Ci-Cis for lunch.  Then after lunch we said good bye.

             The rest of the day we are trying to relax. I bought some play-doh and a Barbie movie. We are also making a countdown chain. 21 (now 17) days until we get to see him again but these breaks are a huge blessing! 

 

 

Thanksgiving

There is no turkey in the oven........

No pie waiting to be eaten.........

No family or friends to fill our house.............

There will be no shopping.........

No elaborate toasts........

But late last night hours after scheduled our Daddy came home...

Its for only 2 days

Its for 2 amazing days!


The plans include

Doughnuts,

Going out to eat turkey,

lots of hugs......

lots of kiss....

reading board books...

playing cards.....

tickles...
tickles

tears...

what am i supposed to do?

Really I want an answer.

Emmett my energetic baby boy is pushing me to my limits

in the past 24 hours he has

put his finger in a light socket and shocked himself
broken a toe nail completely off
thrown a whole thing of granola on the floor
eaten yet another yellow marker (it always yellow)
pulled a whole rack of medicine over at walmart
yelled through Walmart
Screamed through kroger
peed on the bathroom floor (on purpose i think)
Yelled at me

Help!

I can not just hole up in the house.
I have to do the shopping, there is not anyone else to do it.
I have to go to the bathroom, no explanation needed.

Today I loaded the kids and groceries in the car closed the door and stood there for a minute basking in the silence. I knew in the car he was still screaming and Millie was still whining and Summer was I have no clue what but she never stops talking now. So i stood outside the car with my coffee closed my eyes and regrouped.

What is even more frustrating is in museums Emmett is perfect, on historical tours not a peep. He sees a store and he turns into a monster.

I know your not supposed to wish time away but.............

Tuesdays with Morrie

I read a alot. I do not even keep track of half the books I read. I LOVE to read, it moves me.

I have lots of books that have spoken to me but no book has ever moved me like

TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE by Mitch Albom

Reading the book which overall is a happy one had me curled in a fetal position in tears.

The lessons in this book speak to me personally. Lessons on

Living
Loving
marriage
ageing
death
dancing

I highlighted this book like I would a text book some of the quotes will become my lifes mantras.
I want to write so much more over the power of this book, the personality of the man it is about, the love the author, a former student, had for him. NOTHING I write is good enough.

All I can say is

I hope I listen like Morrie
I hope I love like Morrie
I hope I dance like Morrie

Morrie a picture from the book!

internet

I have internet and cable again!!!!!

I was going to try to go without both while I was here.

 I read all these great articles about people not using internet often or turning on the tv for only 1 or 2 hours a week.

LETS GET REAL... (that's going to be my new saying I think)

I like to fall asleep to the tv and since I didn't think to bring any DVD's I was watching the same NCIS episode over and over.

I use google often for school.

And if we are really getting real, I do use the TV as a babysitter as I cook or take a shower or just try to think for a minute or two.

I really like netflix! Being able to Skype people is important to me.

Is my tv always on? NO

But to I enjoy having it? YES

What are my TV limits? I try to limit it to one hour a day okay that was a lie some days it is 2 hours for the kids and for myself some days I never turn the TV choosing to read and on other days I do not limit it once the kids are asleep I almost never watch TV while the kids are awake.

What are my Internet limits? My kids are never on the computer ( why? I really don't know besides it is a HUGE hassle no deep reason)  for myself. I read blogs every morning while drinking coffee, I pintrest usually once a day for 10 to 20 minutes. I have been off of Facebook for I guess 4 months but I am thinking a once a week rule would keep me in touch with friends with out being caught up in the drama (and a big revamp of my "friends" will help to)

What I do not want the Internet to do is take the place of personal relationships. I do not want to blow off the lady at church who wants to have coffee because I have plenty of friends online. Get it?

Really trying to use the time God has given me to analyze my life to really analyze why I do things and the effects that it has on my life. What I learned here?  internet/cable not bad just use with caution!!!!

October reads

( I have so much to blog about this really seemed like the easiest start)

With Ryan being gone I have decided to dedicate a large portion of my free time to reading memories from the Holocaust. You know the books that are to long and emotional to read when you are trying to pump out a 20 page paper in 2 days.

In October I began with

I Survived Rumbuli By Frida Mikhelson translated by Wolf Goodman
http://www.amazon.com/I-Survived-Rumbuli-Frida-Mikhelson/dp/0896040291

This is an interesting first account of a Latvian Jewish woman who survives the massacre in the Rumbuli forest by hiding in a clothes heap then living at the mercies of strangers bouncing from house to house. The book was worth reading it really depicts worst in people during the time as people turn on the Jewish for monetary gain or favor in the eyes of the Nazis and it depicts the best as whole families sacrifice precious food and risk death to keep others alive.

Rena's Promise By Rena Kornreich Gelissen with Heather Dune Macadam http://www.amazon.com/gp/reader/0807070718/ref=sib_dp_pt#reader-link


A story of two sisters who separately arrive at Auschwitz and miraculously find each other and their fight to stay together and survive each day. Together they fought and survived in Auschwitz for over 3 years then also survived a death march from Auschwitz and were liberated by Allied forces. This book is so real and raw just scratching the surface of what they must have been going through physically  and emotionally.