Christmas eve

I am sitting here in my wool socks and sweater, the cookies are in the oven Christmas music is playing in the background. I had a huge coffee while shopping for grocery's at 6am. Ryan is out Christmas shopping with Summer. Millie is helping me bake and Emmett is sleeping.

I love what Christmas means to us, it is not a random holiday with a tree and presents but it is a celebration of the birth of Jesus!

As I sit here in serenity it crossed my mind at this time thousands of years ago Mary was beginning her labor. She was desperate for a place to have her baby. From a mother to a mother I am thankful for the sacrifice of body that Mary made. The pain that she was feeling and the sheer joy I know followed at the first sight of her beautiful baby.

How beautifully and dutifully Mary and Joesph followed Gods plans for them!


Tomorrow we celebrate the birth of Jesus and what that means for us!!! Today I thought I would shout out to Mary and Joesph for their role in bring The Messiah into the world.

Kefir

I have for the better part of 28 years dealt with stomach issues. Recently I read a great article on the benefits of this "magic" drink how great it is for you yadayada......

I was excited and on my next shopping trip was amazed to see a large section of Kefir apparently it was always there just ignored by me as I am rushing through the store.

As I am reading the labels that declare its amazingness. One even said "the champagne of dairy products"

The flavors and brands were numerous but my eyes landed on gingerbread flavored!!! SOLD!

This morning I poured myself a glass excited to try it. WOW was I surprised.

Nope not gingerbread flavored, really I can not tell you what flavor it was.

I'm going to keep forcing myself trying to drink it because my stomach needs the goodness this drink has to offer. I am just hoping one day my taste buds start to agree..

I miss that guy!!!

The first years of our relationship I remember standing at attention in formation trying to catch a glimpse of that guy.

The tall one always in the front row. 

If we were running he was the guy that passed me twice each lap that I watched wishing I could run like him.

The one with the quick wit and humor half the people didn't get.

It is pictures like this that make me miss that bond we shared. The understanding of what he is going through because I was also going through it.

But more than anything when I see pictures like this I feel left out because it is a memory he is making without me....

5 days till he is home for a break!!!!I can not wait!

Blood infection

For over a month now I have been dealing with symptoms that I assumed were depression. The kind you get when you are alone and moving with 3 kids and a stressed out husband who calls once a week.

I felt good for identifying my symptoms and dealing with them by making sure I worked out, getting outside, and going to church.

Well I was wrong.

A fever developed, fatigue started to set in and my joints became sore I had a bladder infection that spread to my kidneys and into my blood stream.

I am exhausted but feeling better now that I am on antibiotics.

Uyrosepsis isn't something to mess around with and the DR let me know that. I tried explaining that honestly I hadn't felt that bad for past month I just thought I was sad. He was unimpressed and lectured me on taking care of myself for my children.....

Then I tried to explain that even that morning I had gone to the gym and worked out for over an hour trying to fight through the depression.Once again he was unimpressed.

Well now I am feeling a bit better and the bacteria was not antibiotic resistant like they feared.

This couch and I have become very good friends and I don't even feel guilty that I plan to spend the rest of the week on it relaxing and trying to pull it together.

PS now that the antibiotics are working I don't feel "sad" anymore guess that DR was right ;)

So much....

I have so much flying around in my head these days I have not wanted to blog because i don't know where to begin.

Emmett screamed all Saturday. If you don't believe me Ryan's mom got to hear it on the phone for an hour. I was so upset I cancelled all our plans and spent the day dealing with him.

The next morning we were ready for church and I sat down on the sofa in a surprise pile of vomit. Nope I had no clue that sometime that morning someone had thrown up. I found Emmett curled behind the couch apparently he was the culprit and didn't want to get in trouble so he hid. (This was his first time getting sick hopefully he knows now not to hide but come get EXTRA mommy snuggles)

The library here sucks is not that great. It is almost crippling because I rely so 'heavily on the library for school and recreational reading. Here is why you can tell me if I'm just being sensitive.

-You only get partial library privileges for 6 months until you prove yourself responsible (I'm screaming military discrimination just saying that is 1/2 an assignment for us)
 
-That means 2 books per card. (really I home school 2 books for a family of 5 ha)

-so now everyone has a card, yup carrying and managing 4 cards.

- I have NEVER seen another child in there and they stare at mine the whole time. I know they are talking and it is the library but they HAVE to ask me questions they  are kids.

Summer is about to get her first reality check. She has never not been a starter in any sport she has played, not to brag but sports are her thing. Here I put her in basketball and it starts tonight. It has not taken me long to figure out football is big here but not like in Oklahoma this is Women's Basketball country. The girls start young and play hard. As the coach mentioned to me "We will be working on a strong fundamental base for these girls so they are competitive for highly sought after college scholarships" By this she was saying we aren't here to win in a sloppy way they would rather have the girls master the concept and lose than win by playing street ball. I'm pretty sure Summer is 100% street_baller, throw an elbow here, foul over there. Don't know where she got that from ;)

okay more later