Grrrr

I know that I signed up to be a military spouse and the benfiets overall out wiegh the cons BUT why are most of the cons so emtional? I saw Ryan for 30 mns yesterday then today I went to lunch with him where he informed me that he may be leaving in June BUT maybe not? And who do I have to get angry at this only him!! There goes our whole summer the vacations the camping family visits! Missing both girls bdays and all summer, come on!! not only that is not like he doesn't want to deploy he has tried to volunteer for the deployment before this one and the one after just not this one..,and can I prepare for it not really because he "might" well how shallow I know but we had so many plans:(