Changes.....

At Christmas time I hit bottom when I got on a scale for the first time in months and was as heavy as Ryan. 178 lbs and was bigger and heavier than the day before I had Millie. My unhealthiness showed in every part of my life. I was sad and hurting.

Ryan and I sat down and talked out some of the issues i was having and i made some BIG changes. I changed our diet, began working out and started getting more active. Well its been 6 months and the changes have been amazing. I have lost over 30 lbs i have dropped from a size 14/16 to a size 8. I have been running and running a lot (at least for me) And i did something 6 months ago i would never have thought possible I ran a 6k and a 5k. they were both great experiences and worth the months of pain and hours of fighting the urge to eat cookies.

The 6k I ran with the family Ryan ran next to me pushing the stroller and carrying summer on his shoulders when she got tired. Having my family next to me every step was the perfect motivation. Hearing my children cheer me on was all the motivation I needed to finish. It was cool cloudy morning the PERFECT first race!!

The 5k was a completely different story, it was like confronting all of my problems by myself, it was over 90 degrees it was a afternoon run and I ran by myself. Each step was a struggle and my only motivator was myself and knowing the girls were waiting for me at the end. It was emotional and with only one water station very exhausting.I fought with inner "demons" urging me to walk, anger over the pain i still felt while running, sadness over the loneliness i felt running alone. In the end I finished and I WON, I won the battle!

I cried and cried and cried but the tears were sweet, because Ryan and the girls were there and proud making the whole thing worth it!!!

Next on the list a 1/2 marathon in September or October (hopefully if i can train in Israel)