BABY n stuff

We are expecting baby number 3which is due the end of July which means early August for me!!!!


(please excuse me while I keep it real)


 And it sucks, I am so sick, everyday multiple times a day. I haven't eaten meat or eggs in weeks. I can't drink coffee or my coke zero. If I cook the dishes don't get done and if the dishes get done I don't cook. I am so so so tired .(I found out i have a UTI and a bladder infection which explains alot)

Being pregnant has made me lonely. Lonely for friends and family that would notice the little pudge i'm putting on. Friends and family that I would celebrate my pregnancy with. friends that would laugh because i threw up in targets parking lot. I am alone very alone and I am not in a good place. I hardly ever leave the house because every time I do I get sick, and I keep trying to find ways to visit my friends and while its perfectly normal to visit friends I don't think its normal to consider options like selling the car or mortgaging a house I don't even own to go visit them.

Whats worse is I have not even gotten excited about having a baby I keep thinking of all the bummer stuff like diapers and midnight feedings and teething that I haven't thought of any positive things (i know they are there I just can't remember them)
 
I have started Yoga here and that is helping with some of the early aches and pains. Not running like I had i hoped but it might come as the nausea dies down still hoping to run a 5 or 10k at about 6 months.