and its wearing on me, and on my family.
No matter how much i try not to let the pregnancy effect our lives it does.
The kids are stressed, waiting for the arrival of their new sibling is very stressful when you have no clue who is going to watch you during the big event. Millie has a viral infection that has given her a painful rash. Summer is curious about the birthing process and is very hurt she will not be there for it.
Ryan is stressed, he doesn't sleep well because I am up several times a night, also his pay is messed up and no one seems to know why or how and its been months and a large percentage not being paid draining our savings and his patience, he is working evenings in an area about 1 1/2 hours away with little to no cell service once again stressful.
I am stressed by the distance away Ryan is working because we are 45 minutes from the hospital and I am probably going to have drive myself there if I go into labor while he is working. The heartburn stinks and I am gaining more weight than I wanted making any eating a guilty affair. I am however staying active water aerobics 3 times a week went on the youth weekend retreat and taught at VBS last week, still taking summer to all her activities and attending youth group.
I do have hope, hope that my body will go into labor on its own. That on my 3rd child I will feel what a contraction that is produced by my body and not my medication feels like. I pray this baby is the healthiest it can possibly be, that the decision I have made for our birth plan are the right ones.
I know that God is in control and knows when this baby is ready, but I do have say I would not mind if this one came a little early!
SOON, Soon, soon, soon, soon.....................................................
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Drive yourself to the hospital, 45 minutes away, while in labor....???? Hmmmm...that would really suck, it would....but dang girl, talk about a story! If only your back yard swing were a little closer for me to sit in and hear about that one!
I will be praying that doesn't happen, or if it does, at least that you can make it to the side of the road! (just call me or Holly so we can giggle with you a little bit and then help you with your breathing while you navigate contractions and traffic). :~)
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