updates!

 I stopped running about 2 months ago. It had again become painful to run on the treadmill and outside well we will just say that isn't an option for several reasons. This morning though some girlfriends were doing a poker run on base. Their sales pitch to me was that it was a "fun" run!

(I will forever more be weary of anyone who speaks those words together. Rewarding, satisfying, worthwhile yes, fun nope I have never really thought running was "fun"!)

So after 2 months of not running, I still work out daily just not running, I did a 4.7 mile poker run. My friends are training for a half marathon in November so they kicked my butt. I was at the back of the pack but after 1 hour and 5 minutes I completed the run without hurling quiting.

Once again I could have cried but this time I did not have a sense of accomplishment as I crossed the finish line,  Ryan's co-workers and my friends (who all finished way in front of me) watched, with the girls beside me.

 I was initially embarrassed. Ryan sensed my unease as did another friend and they kindly turned the attention else where. After some thought and regrouping I realized I was embarrassed because Ryan would have won the race, his friends would have cheered as he received his awards and gifts. Here I was Ryan's wife and he would have finished the race 3 times in the time it took me.

When we walked to the car Ryan put his arm around me and waited for me to gather my thoughts. I apologized for embarrassing him with my time.

He stopped me right there. He told me how proud he was of me, that everyone was. That just because I am his wife I do not have to be a fast runner and that I should never let the time I run something in stop me from running. That if he had not ran in 2 months he would have not even placed. He lied, he would probably still would have won but it was a cute attempt.

So here I sit with my coffee and coffee cake (my reward who needs medals), after much thought I finally feel that since of accomplishment! I was tired, out of shape for a run that long and self conscious about my abilities and that is okay!

(thanks S, M and E you are the reason i finish every single time)

So here are my fitness updates for this time around(after Emmett)

• Starting weight 162 (November 2011) current weight 131(September 2012)
• 3.2 mile mud run
• 4.7 mile run
• favorite cardio is spinning
• favorite recovery/ stretching hot yoga
• I work out 6 to 10 hours a week
• I started out working out 10-14 but cut back! 
• I have lost almost 10% body fat
• have stopped trying to lose weight (if I do great but I am comfortable where i am at for now)