Anniversary thoughts

I wanted to do a Tennessee post but all i learned about myself there is overwhelming so I'll just mention a few things that pop up as I go through life here.

I was not a very good wife. It is something I have always struggled with, not wanting to give to much so if he took his love away I would hurt less.

I would choose the restaurant everytime...

I would always take the best looking Cinnamon roll for myself....

okay you get my drift.... (I also know that I was a good wife in other ways)

But it pressed on my heart that Ryan has given alot in our relationship and it was not fair for me to hold on to an escape plan. Especially when I do not want to escape.

I have been trying to be more mindful, doing things that are not expected of me.

I have been making lunch and breakfast for him to take to work. He uses his lunch to workout when he actually gets a lunch so he was going without lunch.

Funny how that small act makes me feel better every morning. I hope that I keep my heart open to more small ways to "love him more" in the future.


so TN LESSON #1 Be a less selfish wife